You can either choose to FEEL your life, DIE a slow death…or STOP, breathe slowly….FEEL and LET GO…I chose…I did.
Life continues to prove to me that in order to fully find yourself…we sometimes need to lose our way. I still can’t believe that two months ago I was talking marriage to a man who was so wrong for me for the long term and only a month ago, I was thinking of quitting my job, moving, etc. Today – this moment – I am in such a different place.
I have been home bound for more than three weeks because of my accident. And now with this winter storm, I am even more tired, going mad from cabin fever. I feel like screaming.
Really being stuck – literally – shows us who are friends are, and who are fair weather friends are.
Thank goodness for real friends, caring people, thoughtful people…just when I want to give up, they throw me a lifeline.
I’m going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like it’s all a dream, and pretend like it’s not hurting me. The pain I feel now is more tangible due to my broken bones, not my broken spirit.
Oh well, it’s another year. Last year was a year of hopes, dreams, looking for love, looking for work, triumphs, hours on the phone with Cablevision, but I survived yet another cancer scare, Hockey lockout, American Airlines pilot near strike, AMR’s Chapter 11 bankruptcy filing, losing keys, two pairs of glasses…. But everything is possible at any age.
I will continue to live my funny life….safety challenged and all…♥
Live through this, and you won’t look back…