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Forever love …

Two great Hallmark movies, one great song …

“Forever Love”

The first time I laid my eyes on you I knew.
We’d spend this life side by side.
I still feel the same though you’re so far away.
I swear that you’ll always be my.

Forever love.
I promise you.
Someday we’ll be together.
Forever love.
I won’t give up.
No matter what.
I’ll be waiting for you.
Forever love.

Minutes and hours and years may go by.
But my heart knows nothing of time.
So don’t cry, just keep me right there.
In your dreams.
And hold on to these words of mine.

Forever love.
I promise you.
Someday we’ll be together.
Forever love.
I won’t give up.
No matter what.
I’ll be waiting for you.
Forever love.

Love is the road to our destiny.
Nothing can change what is meant to be.

Forever love.
I promise you.
Someday we’ll be together.
Forever love.
I won’t give up.
No matter what.
I’ll be waiting for you.
Forever love.

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Give it to God …

We hear this a lot – ‘Give it to God’. But this story brought it home for me and gives me a too real perspective. Life is short.

The below link will take you to a blog post by the country duo, Joey & Rory.

Excerpt: “We came home, Not to die. But to live.To bask in the glory of the beautiful life He’s blessed us with, and try not to question why we can’t have more of it together. And why He is allowing this to happen. So we don’t have forever. We’ve got right now.”

http://thislifeilive.com/enough/

Be inspired. Pray for all – since we are going through something. Live your life to the fullest … with grace in our steps, hope in our hearts.


Living with Cancer

Today … was like coming home, after a long trip. That’s what true friendships and love are …. it’s like coming home. I was finally able to meet up with some friends today and it was a good day. Good days have been far and few in between this winter.

I find myself trying so hard to be strong. Sometimes, I feel so alone, going through cancer, trying not to be a burden to anyone … but then you let your guard down and realize who truly has your back.

I try to put a big smile on my face but at times, all I want to do is curl up and die. Just give up. But then I find myself lucky enough to spend a couple of hours surrounded by friends and my smile is genuine. I still want to curl up, but not die. Lately, I have been too weak for much. But today was a good day. A day of genuine connection. I felt a part of something. And sometimes, that is all we need. Today was a day of hope and hugs.

People ask me on the bad days what chemo is like, how I am feeling – and although I consider myself articulate, I have a really difficult time explaining it. It’s difficult to describe the forest from the trees, right? Chemotherapy side effects are worse than cancer, that’s for sure. With cancer, most of the time you’d hardly know it if some doctor didn’t tell you. I mean, I was pretty hard up by the time they found it in me, but sometimes cancer can go all the way to stage IV and you’d never know it.

Chemo, on the other hand, you can never forget that. Not for a second. There’s no ignoring chemotherapy. It invades every cell by the end of it. You spend months marinating in a stew of toxic wastes that are out to kill you. And I don’t think that’s overly-dramatic. You try it sometime and see if I’m not right. The exhaustion, the pain, the numbness, the forgetfulness, the vague feelings, the full yet empty stomach, the nausea… so many things, feelings. The exhaustion never totally leaves me, and I can’t stand very long, and today was not really different, except that I felt okay, accepted, no one made me feel bad. I got to sit like a statue and was surrounded by good friends… making new memories. Embracing life…with grace in my step and hope in my heart. Not giving up – on people, nor myself.


I have cried 1000 oceans….

Working from home today…again…due to this crazy winter weather we have been having. Watching movies…enjoyed “Here on Earth” with three beautifully gifted young talents: Chris Klein, Josh Hartnett, and Leelee Sobieski.

Heard this song in today’s movie: 1000 Oceans by Tori Amos…had to share….♥ Since I too, have cried 1000 oceans….


Michael Bublé – “Home”

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In either Paris or Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
And let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It’ll all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home…


I ♥ Dermot Mulroney…yes I do!!

Nick Mercer: Close your eyes. Close your eyes. Close… your… eyes. You’re safe. You can relax. I’m not going to kiss you. He’s gonna be so sorry he lost you, so stop worrying. Forget the past. Forget the pain. And remember what an incredible woman you are. You do that and he’ll realize what he lost.

Nick Mercer: The hardest thing is loving someone and then having the courage to let them love you back. But if you know her shit and she knows yours, and at the end of the day if you still would rather give up than try, nothings ever going to be worth it. Maybe think about it this way… you go back, you get to spend the rest of your life having really great make-up sex.

You can dance, every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight
You can smile, every smile for the man
Who held your hand beneath pale moon light

But don’t forget who’s takin’ you home
And in whose arms you’re gonna be
So darlin’ save the last dance for me

Oh, I know that the music’s fine
Like sparklin’ wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing but while we’re apart
Don’t give your heart to anyone

And don’t forget who’s takin’ you home
And in whose arms you’re gonna be
So darlin’ save the last dance for me

Baby, don’t you know I love you so?
Can’t you feel it when we touch?
I will never, never let you go
I love you, oh, so much

You can dance, go and carry on
Till the night is gone and it’s time to go
If he asks if you’re all alone
Can he walk you home? You must tell him, “No”

‘Cause don’t forget who’s taking you home
And in whose arms you’re gonna be
Save the last dance for me

Oh, I know that the music’s fine
Like sparklin’ wine, go and have your fun
Laugh and sing but while we’re apart
Don’t give your heart to anyone

And don’t forget who’s takin’ you home
And in whose arms you’re gonna be
So, darlin’, save the last dance for me

So don’t forget who’s taking you home
Or in whose arms you’re gonna be
So, darling, save the last dance for me

Oh, baby won’t you save the last dance for me?
Ooh, you make the promise that you save the last dance for me
Save the last dance, the very last dance for me…


Longing…

Ever sit still, in utter silence, and hear the rustling leaves and branches on a tree?  If you inhale, hold your breath, and just listen…you can hear the longing from the tree…filled with strength, such a sanctuary.  It’s like a lover’s whisper, irresistible yet scary – filled with more questions than answers at times.

“The Portuguese call it saudade: a longing for something so indefinite as to be indefinable. Love affairs, miseries of life, the way things were, people already dead, those who left and the ocean that tossed them on the shores of a different land – all things born of the soul that can only be felt.”  ― Anthony De Sa, Barnacle Love

We are homesick most for the places we have never known.

“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd – The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.” ― Fernando Pessoa

“Erotic longing is really a longing to merge with something greater than oneself. For every kind of love is a force that holds the promise of taking us beyond the limitations of our individual lives.”  ― Julianne Davidow

Longing…for home, happiness…all held together by hope.


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