Monthly Archives: February 2014

Happy…♥

Despite my asthma and bronchitis acting up due to this frigid weather – I went last night to the doctors for a new inhaler…so life is okay; will only continue to get better. Co-workers are packing up the office for our move back to our permanent space after a temporary move due to a flood…and they were humming this song by Pharrell…Happy!!! Now I don’t have children, so I never went to see the movie, “Despicable Me 2″…Pharrell’s “Happy” is off of the ‘Despicable Me 2′ soundtrack. It was first released early 2013, but gained traction only by the end of the year, currently leading the US iTunes charts. Pharrell Williams’ ‘Happy’ Hits No. 1 On Hot 100! The track is a great feel-good song and will make you feel happy and clap along….

It might seem crazy what I’m ’bout to say
Sunshine she’s here, you can take a break
Mama – hot air balloon that could go to space
With the air like I don’t care, baby, by the way

Because I’m happy…
Come along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I’m happy…
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I’m happy…
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I’m happy…
Clap along if you feel like that’s what you want to do

Here comes bad news, talkin’ this and that
But give me all you’ve got, and don’t hold it back
Well, I should probably warn you, I’ll be just fine
No offense to you, don’t waste your time, here’s why…

Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down… your love is too high…
Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down, I said (let me tell you now)
Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down… your love is too high…
Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down, I said…

Because I’m happy…
Come along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I’m happy…
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I’m happy…
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I’m happy…
Clap along if you feel like that’s what you want to do

Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down… your love is too high…
Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down, I said (let me tell you now)


The Journey’s Baggage…

Narrative from Dr. Steve Maraboli = had to share:

The Journey’s Baggage…

I am a people watcher and I travel a lot. At times, this makes for entertainment, aggravation, and even observational learning. On one particular occasion, I was coming back to New York from a business trip out west. The plane landed and I couldn’t wait to get to my car and go home. As I walked through the airport like a man on a mission, breezing past baggage claim, I couldn’t help but hear the excited cheers of young kids.

Curiosity caused me to look in the direction of these extremely loud and excited kids. It appeared to me that their dad had come home from a trip. These kids were jumping up and down in excitement and as soon as their dad got close to them, they tackled his legs – even as a distant observer, it was a pretty touching moment.

The dad seemed equally happy to see his kids as he looked down at them hugging his legs and jumping at him as he tried his best to hold his arms high and not to hit the kids with the luggage in his hands.

The excitement was touching and gained the attention of several people in the area as the kids were yelling for him to pick them up. As I watched, I was thinking to myself that he can’t pick them up, he can’t embrace them, he can’t receive the love they’re sharing until he lets go of the luggage; the baggage he was holding from his trip.

And again, I couldn’t help but liken that to all of our lives. This man could not embrace what the NOW had to offer while he was holding on to the luggage from his journey.

How many of us walk around being weighted down by the baggage of our journey? You can’t possibly embrace that new relationship, that new companion, that new career, that new friendship, or that new life you want while you’re still holding on to the baggage of the last one. Let go… and allow yourself to embrace what is waiting for you right at your feet.

– Dr. Steve Maraboli ~ His latest book is, “Unapologetically You” ♥♥♥

The Journey’s Baggage...


Reunited…and it feels so good.

Reunited…and it feels so good. Yes! Finally! Yesterday was a great day…a day all about ME. I was funny, charming, silly, impulsive…I felt alive, like I didn’t have a care in the world. And for a few blissful hours, I didn’t. I made my usual Saturday night plans for dinner then movie…and found myself dancing the night away into the wee hours of the morning. I have not felt this free in years. It was fantastic. I was surrounded by good friends – the non-judgmental ones; friends who want nothing tangible from me except friendship. Being the oldest in the night club and not being comfortably dressed, did not deter me from having a great time. I felt at peace, even beautiful. I have realized that it has been way too long since I have completely, and literally, let my hair down.

“To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” – Thich Nhat Hanh

The most important decision of your life, the one that will effect every other decision you make, is the commitment to love and accept yourself. It directly affects the quality of your relationships, your work, your free time, your faith, and your future.

I go out, and am usually worried about parents, dog, money, having to get up early to do things for others. I am usually so sleep deprived that I tire way too easy.

Yesterday, my Saturday started like most other Saturdays…buying the paper for my Dad, getting pastries, fresh bread for my parents, walking the dog, going into NYC for some volunteer work. I should have known it would be a great day…one of the young cancer patients I counsel, is actually showing such remarkable progress. Hope, faith…praying.

Trains were on time. I was actually only two minutes late for my much needed hair coloring appointment. Such a relaxing time at the salon. Learned one of the young ladies at the salon got engaged, met her new fiance, and her ring was a beauty. Love, hope…wistful.

Although, I was tired…I was determined to have a few hours of just pure enjoyment. Dinner was stress-free, conversations easy and flowing. Movie was sweet, funny. When we found ourselves not wanting the night to end, we decided to find a dance club. Although, most clubs are packed with the 20 something crowd, we were not deterred. We were on a mission to let the music just carry us away. I felt alive again. It was like stripping off several layers of paint from an antique piece of furniture. I found myself restored to my original beauty of life, full of joy. Not caring if I looked old, silly – allowed me to feel alive and I could abandon all those inhibitions. I just felt like the old me. Living in appreciation.

Most days, I tend to reminiscence, and live in the past. Missing the men in my life, lost to me too early. Suffering comes from living in the pain of the past or the fear of the future. That is not living. My fiance, who passed away, would not want me to be alone, wallowing in what ifs. I am determined to continue placing attention on the present moment and be at peace. Lately, I am trying so hard to live in the present.

Focusing on me…on loving myself more. True self-love requires time to relax, play, and create face-to-face interaction with others. Our fast-paced world creates a goal setting, competitive craziness that doesn’t leave room for play. A doctor once said, “The opposite of play isn’t work, it is depression.” Yes, I feel like I have lost too many years as it is. I refuse to live in shadows anymore. Letting go of negative people, judgmental people, lying people, and dramatic people. Trying to stay true to myself. Love myself. Put myself first. No more self-neglect.

The past few weeks, pre-spring cleaning, has also found me cleaning out my closets. I have gained a lot of weight the past couple of years. And although I have to lose some for health reasons, I am embracing my new curves. I never thought the clothes hanging in my closet were symbolic in any way. But they are. Having clothes that no longer fit me, made me feel bad. Made me feel unworthy and just plain fat. No more.

So, there you have it. My new clothes, less clothes in the closet. A few hours of pure fun. A few hours of pure selfishness. My new return to finding ME. My new determination to not forget myself again.

Yes, reunited…and it feels so good….singing…♥


Don’t Want This Night To End…♥

Girl I know I don’t know you
But your pretty little eyes so blue
Are pulling me in
Like the moon on your skin

I’m so glad you trusted me
To slide up on this dusty seat
And let your hair down
Get out of town

Got the stars coming out over my hood
And all I know now is it’s going good

You got your hands up
You’re rocking in my truck
You got the radio on
You’re singing every song
I’m set on cruise control
I’m slowly losing hold
Of everything I got
You’re looking so damn hot

And I don’t know what road we’re on
Or where we’ve been
From staring at you girl
All I know is I don’t want this night to end

Gonna cuss the morning when it comes
Cause I know that the rising sun
Ain’t no good for me
Cause you’ll have to leave

Gonna make the most of every mile
Do anything to make your smile
Land on my lips
Get drunk on your kiss

Clock on the dash says 3:35
There’s plenty of gas and the night’s still alive

You got your hands up
You’re rocking in my truck
You got the radio on
You’re singing every song
I’m set on cruise control
I’m slowly losing hold
Of everything I got
You’re looking so damn hot

And I don’t know what road we’re on
Or where we’ve been
From staring at you girl
All I know is I don’t want this night to end

You got your hands up
You’re rocking in my truck
You got the radio on
You’re singing every song
I’m set on cruise control
I’m slowly losing hold
Of everything I got
You’re looking so damn hot

And I don’t know what road we’re on
Or where we’ve been
From staring at you girl
All I know is I don’t want this night to end

I don’t want this night to end

No I don’t want this night to end…♥


Christina Perri – Human

Exactly how I am feeling right now, right this minute….

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I could stay awake for days if thats what you want
be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
if thats what you ask
give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human and I crash and I break down
your words in my head
knives in my heart
you build me up and then I fall apart
cause I’m only human

I can turn it on
be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds if that’s what you need
be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I’ll get through it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human and I crash and I break down
your words in my head
knives in my heart
you build me up and then I fall apart
cause I’m only human

I’m only human
I’m only human
just a little human

I can take so much
till I’ve had enough

‘Cause I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human and I crash and I break down
your words in my head
knives in my heart
you build me up and then I fall apart
cause I’m only human…


Have Faith…

Out of the darkest days comes some of life’s greatest moments. Have Faith. ♥

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Love is the opposite of logic….

Logic is argumentative, aggressive upon the mind, splits the world into right and wrong, us and them. Love is generative, compassionate, embracing all creation. Logic pays attention to what is being said. Love pays attention to how things are said. Logic leads to debate. Love leads to communion. Practice love to be closer to God.


No Regrets…

Here’s a quote from Elizabeth Gilbert’s Eat Pray Love that describes my relationship with who will always be the love of my life…

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”

So with tears in my eyes and great respect for him I say goodbye to who I now know was my soul mate…


I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER

This just had me laughing today…but I am always in need of prayers…

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair, now,
And wondering what dress to wear, now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, forever, you’ll stay in my heart
And I will love you
Forever, forever, we never will part
Oh, how I’ll love you
Together, together, that’s how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, forever, you’ll stay in my heart
And I will love you
Forever, forever we never will part
Oh, how I’ll love you
Together, together, that’s how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

My darling believe me,
For me there is no one
But you…


Falling In by Lifehouse

Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase now
Don’t be scared it’s only love
Baby that we’re falling in

I can’t wait, ’till tomorrow
This feeling, has swallowed, me whole
And I know, that I’ve lost, control

This heart that, I’ve followed
Has left me, so hollow that was then, this is now
Yeah you have changed, everything

Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase now
Don’t be scared it’s only love
That we’re falling in

I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on
Don’t look down it’s only love
Baby that we’re falling in

I’m standing, in your driveway
It’s midnight, and I’m sideways I have
To find, out if you, feel the same

Won’t be easy, have my doubts too
But it’s over, without you I’m just lost, incomplete
Yeah you feel like home, home to me

Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase now
Don’t be scared it’s only love
That we’re falling in

I would never do you wrong (do you wrong)
Or let you down or lead you on (lead you on)
Don’t look down it’s only love
Baby that we’re falling in, falling in


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