Feeling completely lost, yet grateful…for true friends!

Where did October go?? It’s been such a crazy few weeks. I have had so many things to write, but couldn’t find the time nor energy. Work and public transportation issues have kept me chained in the clock ticking too fast with little time to feel actually good and productive. My current job is not a good motivating place; it’s unfortunately a sad place filled with unhappy zombies. And they keep trying to drag me down to their level. I will continue to look for a better place to work. And try to avoid the slow, demotivating, disconnected people who sadly try to drag me down their brain-dead, soul-less level. The last few weeks (well to be honest, too many moments in the past years) – there have been times when I feel like I am in the dark. Fumbling. Desperately trying to find my way. Stuck in a dead end job or grieving from a lousy relationship or suffering from health concerns. Everything looks bleak. I seem to constantly be on the verge of tears with no end in sight. Yes….

And as sad as I have been lately, I find comfort in the few real friends I do have. You know those wonderful friends, who even though so much time can go by, and we don’t have the luxury in keeping in daily contact, but yet at the moment you need them, they are there with open arms, overflowing hearts and warm thoughts.

Today, the post office brought me a much needed “hug” from a far-away friend. And tears were of joy and accepting that I am not really ever alone.

“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring: all of which have the potential to turn a life around.” – Leo Buscaglia

And I have shared this following thought in an earlier post, but it bears repeating…

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. You learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises. You learn that loving doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t always mean security, and you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. After a while you learn to build all your dreams on today because tomorrows ground is to uncertain for dreams, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn to accept your defeats with your head held with the grace of a woman and not the grief of a child. After a while you learn to plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really are strong, that you really do have self worth, and you can endure, and you learn and learn, with every “goodbye” you learn…

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About Teresita

I am a writer, a thinker, an introvert, work behind the scenes kind of person - I am of Puerto Rican blood, have an Italian soul, and a Berliner mind....just learning...♥ View all posts by Teresita

One response to “Feeling completely lost, yet grateful…for true friends!

  • Marie T

    🙂 – you are strong, you do have self-worth, and you definitely can endure…but most importantly, never underestimate how loved and cared about you truly are. Now remember, the key is to unwrap only one a day – good luck with that – lol!!! xoxo

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