Monthly Archives: December 2012

Reflections of a Year

Happy Holidays, Everyone!  I hope you have all been enjoying the holiday season and its many celebrations.   I have been blessed with love, warmth, meals, and friends, and yes – some truly wonderful gifts…♥

The past year for me has been a journey of discovery and re-direction in many ways.  It has been a time of quiet reflection, a time to gather my memories of my pasts, and learn how to accept love into my life again.  Aside from some grief and feeling of loss it has brought serious contemplation of the importance of friends, family, the necessity of unassailable caring for one another and the need to resolve differences and reach a level of unimpeachable understanding between us all.   And it hasn’t and still isn’t always easy to accomplish.   I have been fortunate though – so many times this past year, I have felt at peace, sense of quiet faith that all will be well in the future.

These last few days of the year will be all abuzz with chatter of the past year’s best of, hottest this, latest that.  And even more than that, everybody will most likely vow a commitment to some act of self-improvement for the upcoming year.   Ah – the infamous New Year’s Resolution.   Good intentions, that most often fall by the wayside only to be regarded as lists of would’ve, could’ve, should’ve.

Want to know why I don’t believe in New Year’s Resolutions?!   I have said this many times – they are an excuse to take the bad parts of your life and flaunt them with the promise that you’ll change them; they’re an excuse to realize you have messed up and are going to change without being ashamed.  But there is no shame in wanting to change.  We are constantly changing, whether we know it or not.  Take a year and live it one day at a time; you’d be surprised how much can change on its own when you’re not making dreamy long-term goals.  That is how I have lived my life…and now here I am and I don’t know how to accept people who don’t.

At this time of year, we naturally think back over the past twelve months and look ahead towards the future.  Looking back at times gone by (Auld Lang Syne) can be a good thing, especially if we focus on the stuff we’ve accomplished and the adventures we’ve had with friends or family. I think reflecting on our accomplishments and giving thanks for our good fortune is healthy.  But what about looking forward?

So I wonder how many of us will make New Year’s resolutions:  Lose weight.  Sleep enough hours.  Hit the gym.  Cut out the fast food.  Quit smoking.  Drink less.

If you’re looking for a new way to approach your outlook on the New Year, try this instead. Take a moment for some silent self-reflection on the past year and use where you are today to get where you want to be tomorrow.  While I’m not one for New Year’s Resolutions, I am committed to setting goals.

This coming January, concludes my first year writing this blog.  What a journey it has been.  I want to thank all of my followers for taking time out to read some of my musings.  This has been a very disparate year for me – looking for love, fighting demons of insecurities, loss, dealing with cancer, re-connecting with family and friends, looking for work, joining support group, volunteer work…the year is ending on  a very positive note for me…finding a great man and steady work have been true blessings.

How about you?  Are you setting resolutions goals for the new calendar year?

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“I’m Spending Christmas with Jesus this Year”

This poem is dedicated to those who have lost loved ones , which have gone to be with the lord during the past year, who are
spending their Christmas in Heaven.

” I’m Spending Christmas with Jesus this Year”

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
with tiny lights like heaven stars
reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular
Please wipe away that that tear
For I’m spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year

I hear the many Christmas songs
That people hold so dear
O’, the sounds of music can’t compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

For I have no words to tell you
of the joy their voices bring
for it’s beyond description
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart.
but, through our memories so dear..
We’re never far apart.

I can’t tell you of the splendor
or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas
with Our Savior…….face-to-face.

I’ll ask him to light your spirit
As I tell him of your Love.
Then I’ll pray for ‘One another’
As you lift your eyes above.

So please let your heart be joyful
and let your spirit sing
for I’m spending Christmas in heaven
and I’m walking with the king.

 

Miss you Papi, AJ, and MM.  Always in my thoughts and heart….always your baby girl.  ♥


My life isn’t like a box of chocolates, its like a Nicholas Sparks book…♥

I sometimes think that Nicholas Sparks and I are living parallel lives…I have experienced such moments and feelings that he has so succinctly captured them in his writings, his books….

“You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Rescue

“You can’t live your life for other people. You’ve got to do what’s right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

“Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love, but that doesn’t make you love them any less. Sometimes you love them more.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Last Song

“It’s possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief . . . lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it’s not so overwhelming.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

“Without suffering, there’d be no compassion.”
― Nicholas Sparks, A Walk to Remember

“Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple
dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so
reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch, but never quite
close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Three Weeks with My Brother

“I have faith that God will show you the answer. But you have to understand that
sometimes it takes a while to be able to recognize what God wants you to do.
That’s how it often is. God’s voice is usually nothing more than a whisper, and
you have to listen very carefully to hear it. But other times, in those rarest
of moments, the answer is obvious and rings as loud as a church bell.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Last Song

“It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you
want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the
way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.”
― Nicholas Sparks

“He often felt that too many people lived their lives acting and pretending,
wearing masks and losing themselves in the process.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Choice

“I have come to realize that destiny can hurt a person as much as it can bless
them, and I find myself wondering why–out of all the people in all the world I
could ever have loved–I had to fall in love with someone who was taken away
from me.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Message in a Bottle

“It’s funny, but have you ever noticed that the more special something is, the
more people seem to take it for granted? It’s like they think it won’t ever
change. Just like this house here. All it ever needed was a little attention,
and it would never have ended up like this in the first place.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Wedding

“Theresa, I know there’s a part of you that believes you can change someone, but
the reality is that you can’t. You can change yourself, and Garrett can change
himself, but you can’t do it for him.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Message in a Bottle

“If some lives form a perfect circle, others take shape in ways we cannot predict or always understand.  Loss has been a part of my journey. But it has also shown me what is precious. So has a love for which I can only be grateful.”

― Nicholas Sparks, Message in a Bottle

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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