It has been a good year for me…especially deep down, where it counts. My self-esteem is at an all-time high. I have come to realize that there are people out there who try to bring me down – which I have finally realized and accepted only means that I am above them. Yup! And if that sounds like I am egotistical, then so be it. I know who I am…and I will never again allow another person to doubt myself, make me feel less than whole.
Some may say that I have erected the walls around me because I am scared; but I don’t agree. I know that these walls around me protect me from false people. In my self-imposed isolation, I have learned my self-worth. I have been able to discover who I really am, and who I continually strive to be. I no longer look outside to others to define my value.
For years, I have tried getting my mother to actually like me, be proud of me – but now I just accept her lack of approval and interest in me and my life. I no longer seek it; I no longer become so sad by it that it hinders me. I have changed. I no longer feel the need to try to convince her or anyone else that I am right or good; it’s more about acting from the center of my own heart with convictions that are unshakeable by someone else’s judgment.
I have learned that everyone, yes including me, creates their own beauty…with our actions, attitudes, and behavior. When you know who you are, you can do anything…♥