It is Wednesday afternoon and I would estimate that I am at a 55% personal restoration rate. Let me explain, last night I went out after 9pm, stayed out way past my bedtime, could not sleep, tossing around yet another mild rejection. Earlier yesterday, I was so blissfully unaware of what lay ahead for me. I just thought, heck, life is short – it was Fat Tuesday, let me go out and enjoy! *sigh* I was able to confirm some nagging questions I had though. So that is good. I think I am finally able to put some things and people behind me. Some closure was warranted. And as hungover and achy as I may be today, my head is clear, my heart still open.
Kick the darkness till it bleeds daylight…
“It doesn’t matter how long we may have been stuck in a sense of our limitations. If we go into a darkened room and turn on the light, it doesn’t matter if the room has been dark for a day, a week, or ten thousand years – we turn on the light and it is illuminated.
Once we control our capacity for love and happiness, the light has been turned on.” ~ Sharon Salzberg