Falling in love…mysterious, scary, fantastic feeling…two people talking for hours without getting bored, physically missing them the minute they are out of sight…*sigh* Is that real?
Too bad people don’t fall in love always at the same pace, at the same time, for the same reasons…its each bit of madness moving at its own pace, one not dependent on the pace of anything else. It is not like tandem skydiving, where you were connected as you fall, where you are forced to fall at the same rate and use the same parachute. Falling in love is definitely a solo act. You just jump and hope that your parachute will open. Sometimes, you look up and realize that you were falling by yourself, the object of your desire still on the plane, not interested in jumping and watching you descend into that scary place alone.
We all long for love and relationship and healing and hope…We all want to believe that love is this magical thing that fixes our problems and makes things perfect. We look for the love that we see in the movies and fall for all of Hollywood’s lies. But the truth is, love will never be like that. Love is something you have to work at and fight for. It’s not always pretty and it’s definitely not magical most times, because not even love can keep two people together if they don’t try. I believe that anyone who falls in love is searching for the missing pieces of themselves….I know I am….
Ah falling in love…its not just about one person – you have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You have unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said, “here – do what you will – mash it into mince meat, or forget I ever handed it to you. That’s the thing about love – it makes us a little manic, crazy. It makes reality blur, sometimes totally invisible and it erases all the lines that we once thought we shouldn’t cross. Love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future; It’s about scaring the shit out of every nerve fiber in our body, but pushing forward anyway. All the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty should be worth it. And it’s a heck of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling “happy” and feeling whole….just saying…♥